I was going to submit this for the recent stitched Saturday but alas, time got away from me. Regardless, here is the story, enjoy!
Bridgette Stoffa watched the two women opposite her laugh and smile as the brightness of the sun’s rays beamed on them. Bridgette watched as their children played and listened with joy as their giggles filled the air. One of the women patted the other one’s bulging, pregnant belly. Bridgette turned away and shut her eyes against the forming tears. She didn’t know why she tortured herself like this. She looked down at her own flat stomach and the only thought she heard in her mind was “barren”. She cringed at the word then stood up and threw away the rest of her half eaten turkey sandwich. She brushed her black hair out of her face and walked back to her office.
Bridgette arrived at the same time as another woman from the accounting department. They both stepped through the door.
“Surprise!” Everyone shouted.
Bridgette jumped then turned and realized they meant it for the woman behind her.
“Oh, congratulations Jennifer! I’m so happy for you!” Everyone expressed their joy for the woman behind her.
Bridgette felt Jill, her only friend at work, lean in close to her. “I guess they had been trying for almost two years, it seems the fertility treatment worked, I thought I had told you,” Jill said with an apologetic tone.
Jill was the only one who knew Bridgette had even resorted to a fertility clinic and a sperm bank to get pregnant.
Only to be told it didn’t take.
Bridgette bit her lip and said a soft congratulations to a beaming Jennifer then went back to her desk. She hadn’t noticed that Jill had followed close behind.
“Look, you’ve been trying, I know it’s not your thing but maybe you could even try the old fashioned way–”
Bridgette half glared up at her.
Jill shook her head and waved her hands “No, you’re right forget it. You already told me, I’m sorry. You’re right anyway, if the treatments didn’t work, then why would a man–” Jill shook her head. “I’m sorry.”
Bridgette didn’t say a word. Instead she turned back to her computer.
“Oh hey, I did find something. Maybe she can at least make some of the negativity go away.” Jill dug a black card out of her pocket.
Bridgette paused when she saw the pentagrams on the card. In the center was a name and address. “Agnes Lasako, professional witch” Bridgette read off her address to herself and thought tomorrow during her lunch hour, she would pay a visit.
The next day Bridgette found herself at the door of Agnes Lasako. A dark thought loomed over her: in many ways, this really was her last resort. Shrugging it off, she knocked on the door before a warm voice beckoned her to enter.
The room was decorated with Victorian lace and antiques. The walls were a textured dark red. Seated at a dark mahogany desk sat a small nymph like woman with large cat like eyes and reddish brown hair. “Good afternoon Bridgette, I have been expecting you.”
Bridgette tilted her head, her expression one of confusion.
Agnes Lasako smiled and shook her head. “My apologies, I didn’t mean to surprise you. It’s just a casual greeting I assure you, so what is it you are seeking?”
“I thought you would tell me.” Bridgette said in an offhand way, something she did often.
Agnes expression grew sharp. “I would be careful how I addressed someone who was trying to give you what you wanted.”
Bridgette dropped her eyes and nodded.
Agnes crossed closer to her and she grasped Bridgette’s hand. “May I have your permission then? Your permission to know, your permission to see?”
Unsure what she meant Bridgette nodded anyway. Agnes shut her eyes for a second and Bridgette kept her attention on Agnes.
Bridgette was thinking the whole thing was a waste of time.
Agnes flung her eyes open and put her hand to Bridgettes stomach. Bridgette tried to move her hand away but Agnes’ grip was firm. Before she could get a wod out, the hand was gone and Agnes went back to her desk.
Bridgette looked at her “So is there anything I need to do”
Agnes sat down and gave her a strange glare. “It’s all been done. There’s nothing you need to do, you willed it so, I just aided.”
Confused, Bridgette grabbed her purse “So how much do I owe you then?”
Agnes shook her head.“It will all be paid in full, don’t you worry.”
Bridgette was more taken back and couldn’t wait to leave.
After Bridgette left, she felt foolish for having gone and she pushed the whole afternoon out of her mind. Days passed and soon Bridgette forgot all about it. However, her dreams were bizarre. She kept dreaming of sex–intimate, passionate and everytime she pulled back the head of her lover after they were both spent, she could never see the face. Then one evening about four weeks later, with night after night of passion, she saw the face of her lover. It was her own demonic looking face with a wicked toothy smile.
Bridgette woke up with a start from the dream. The dream disgusted her. She lay back in bed a few moments then arose to start her morning routine. Bridgette was brushing her teeth when the nausea hit her. She began to hack and spit, then she vomited. She guessed it was the vileness of her dream that made her throw up.
Day after day, both mornings and afternoons, Bridgette was ill. She came up with various reasons as to why she felt so bad, but none were right.
She had nearly given up all hope of motherhood when they told her the long awaited news, she was having a baby.
Bridgette kept it to herself at first, afraid something may happen. Over time, she began to show and she let others in on her wonderful secret. Jill and everyone guessed it was the fertility clinic that finally got through. Bridgette didn’t’ care, she was just relieved and happier than she ever thought she could be.
The months went by and the planning and happiness resonated off her. She never thought of Agnes Lasako or that odd day, but deep down she was grateful to her. Finally on a warm day April, her water broke. She wasn’t able to get a hold of her regular doctor and was closer to a hospital she hadn’t visited before. It was fast and before they could get her information she went into full labor. Surely they could get her information after the baby was born.
Bridgettes hips locked and it was hard to breathe. The pain was almost intolerable, but with each wave of pain she remembered how much she had wanted this and looked forward to all of her life. With a final push she could almost feel the baby rip her apart. She didn’t care, she laughed a little when she heard the small cry.
Bridgette tried to sit up and she found she couldn’t. She thought she heard the doctors around her gasp. She found that she was too weak to move and she was surprised that the nurses were able to pick her up and clean her off as though she were tiny. She tried to speak but her voice was gone, so she just listened.
“Oddest thing, I’ve heard of a phantom pregnancy, but this is unreal” Bridgette heard the nurses saying “Her clothes, everything is missing so we don’t even know who she was and now she’s just gone.” Another nurse came into the room “She left behind this beautiful baby girl, poor thing. I guess she didn’t want her baby afterall.” Bridgette was appalled, but she also wondered why they talked about another patient.
She was confused and getting tired, but she felt comforted as they cleaned her off with tender care. They wrapped her up tightly and Bridgette felt comforted. She tried to speak again but she found she was still unable to. When she tried to move, she was totally blocked in as though she were wrapped up in a kind of straight jacket, as she was unable to move her arms. A sick feeling of horror seeped through her as she became aware of her overly large surroundings and her blurred vision. When she saw her reflection in the plastic bin she was in, she started to scream and cry, a baby cry.
Before the nurse came in and picked her up, she suddenly knew. She knew this was her price for going to that witch and wanting a baby. She had paid in full, and in kind with her own adult body. The nurse calmed and comforted her and she heard them speak about the woman who had given birth to her and seemed to have slipped away. Bridgette shut her eyes and knew they would never find the adult she was, nor any trace of her. “Two identical things can’t occupy the same space” she thought wearily and she drifted off to sleep.
The hospital tried to find Bridgette, as did her friend Jill, but everyone guessed she had simply slipped out of her life. The hospital could find no record nor any trace of her clothing, they guessed she had gone their to simply ditch her baby. Jill couldn’t find her anywhere and guessed she had moved on, but as time crept on, the memory of Bridgette began to fade.
A day or so later Bridgette now was like a normal baby girl. Blissfully unaware of the life she had lived up until her birth. SHe was adopted by a nice nurse and her husband. She was loved and cared for and she grew up into a quiet and shy woman that they had named Bridgette.
Just as before, Bridgette had this undeniable urge for children. Same as before she couldn’t get pregnant and once again, she found Agnes Lasako. This time, it wasn’t because of Jill. Jill had long since become a manager at the company and was getting ready to plan her retirement, though she had admitted that the new receptionist looked sort of like her Bridgette but she couldn’t be sure.
Bridgette knocked on the door of Agnes’ office and waited for her to say come in. Agnes recognized the girl who was both mother and father to herself. The one who had long ago made a deal with the devil to have her beloved child and in return was mother and father to herself. WIth a bright smile Agnes stood, though her own reddish hair was graying and the sparkle was started to fade, she couldn’t help but be amused at the woman before her who would never get past her thirty sixth birthday. Agnes smiled and welcomed her as she always did, as had her mother, her grandmother and her great grandmother, over the past hundred years or so. Agnes smiled to herself as she thought of the future generations that would welcome her as well. “Good afternoon Bridgette, I was expecting you.”
The End